This morning I woke up early even though I had downed a flask full(180ml) of vodka last night. I wasn’t feeling too good yesterday and after a long time I had a drink. I guess I needed to loosen up a little. I don’t have drinking problems and sobriety is not an issue for me. I just don’t like to drink that much. I avoid it so I can drink on the days when I simply can’t handle the pressure. Yesterday was one of those days. Now that the day has passed I realised it was a wise choice because I am here the next day working again. I learnt that what I was concerned about was nothing more than material nonsense. Every day is a challenge when self improvement is concerned. It is easy to compare yourself with others and feel bad about it. I guess inner strength comes from a solid foundation and real confidence comes from real work. Whatever I was comparing myself to was either just a facade or if in fact it was real it was something that was tempting me enough to drive me to insanity. It was too good to be true.
Went to the gym a little later than usual despite waking up earlier than expected. I trained legs at the gym. The workout was great to be honest. I thought I would have a hangover but that didn’t happen. I also thought that I would not be able to focus but I was quite alert the entire time. I suppose there are benefits to working out every day. I think a lot has changed now. My body is able to tolerate alcohol better. I am not sure why that is but it is certainly a welcome change. Lunch was simple today- eggs and potatoes. I didn’t eat a lot but kept myself hydrated throughout the day. Worked all afternoon. Went out for a walk in the evening. Day 48 was a success!
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