I don’t enjoy dwelling on the past or ruminating about negative events. I used to battle serious anxiety and I have pulled myself out of depression after a long and tedious war with it. I realised that the past is just that and I don’t live there. I can learn from it but I cannot rely on results of the present. I must act so the future is affected by my actions in such a way that I can maintain my composure and remain at peace. But on occasion the past comes up to you in the most surprising ways.

After finishing my reading task and taking my progress picture I headed out for my first workout. At the gym I worked my way towards the coveted handstand and then worked on doing the sideways split and the forward split. I am trying to be flexible so I can feel more comfortable in my body. While doing my handstand practice I fell on the hard floor but I did not mind it if anything I felt alive from the fear of it. After that I used the stagnant bike to rush my heart for 20 minutes and then headed home from there. On the way home I called my mom to see if she wanted anything and she sent me a list. I headed to the grocery store.

On my way there I met my friend Yogesh. Yogesh was my classmate from engineering college. We met after nearly 5 years. He did not know about my father and meeting him brought a rush of emotions. I held back tears as I greeted him with a smile. He reminds me of simpler times when life was fun and carefree. I used to get in trouble all the time and get away with it too. I was a very spoiled brat but luckily I never hurt anyone. He had moved out of town for some reasons and we caught up and exchanged phone numbers again. I did not expect to see him honestly. We had a group and we were always getting together to get drunk and these guys were the musicians who used to jam and play rock music while I listened in my haze as the grateful audience. It was shit music but it was pleasant to hear at the time.

We parted ways after the chance meeting and were certainly glad we met. I got home from the grocery store and took a shower. After that I had some breakfast and got to work. I worked till late evening and headed out for a walk. For some reason there was a lot of traffic on the roads today and my route was congested. I got through it nonetheless. When I came home I finished my gallon of water and had a late dinner. I was ruminating about something positive for once in the form of the events of the day. Day 33 was a success.